Dear baby Jessica,
I cannot believe we’ve had you for over 3 weeks. It’s an understatement when someone says you blink and all of a sudden your baby is getting married. Just yesterday I found out we were pregnant and today we graduated from the newborn diapers to size one. I called your father, almost in tears. You’re growing so fast. You actuallt fit into your 0-3 month clothes and 2 in particular might be getting a bit snug already.
The smell of your head, your neck, your entire being is intoxicating. All I have to get is a whif in passing and my heart starts beating a bit faster, for I know you’re close. You’re in the room, you’re alive and doing well, you’re flourishing … and I can’t get enough of it.
I love the noises you make when you nurse and the way you crunch up your shoulders when I tickle your neck. I love the way Pappy and Jessica make you smile when you’re sleeping, they must be pretty funny because they have you smilin’ all the time. Say hi to them for me. Tell Pappy I miss the crap out of him and that I wish with everything in me that he could meet you in the flesh. To hold you and hug you and rub his wiskers all over your baby soft scalp.
I can’t get enough of your eyes and the way you wonder the landscape with your curiousity where ever we are. I’m seeing the world for this first time all over again, and it’s utterly magnificent to see it through your eyes.
To see the viens running under your skin and to think that you were put together, knit together in my womb. To think that there are acutally people out there who don’t believe there is a God. What an awesome God we have my child. What a miracle that you came to be from something the human eye cannot see – and now we have a beautiful baby girl.
Oh baby Jessica, I love you with all my aching heart. My chest swells with admoration at the sight of you, the world stops when I hear your cry and every morning I greet your face is another day I can’t wait to conquer.
Baby girl, sweet sweet baby girl, you are my breath of Heaven.