I’m letting myself off the hook. After a date night where we discussed ad nauseum, again, the things on my mind and the tears that won’t stop and the identity I can’t seem to shake … Aaron asked me to let myself off the hook.
I’m not discounting the places I’ve been or where I’m sure to go. I’m not going to force this.
Sometimes I just want to hide. Even our debt free story, while it was fun and the whole energy of the moment on Dave Ramsey was something I’ll never forget, I just want to stop being something everyone knows about. You know?
I just want a break from being this vulnerable, this open. And so does Aaron.
Our lives are mostly lived out-loud and online. We make no apologies for being outspoken or in the front and we both enjoy the outcome of being so open. Until we don’t anymore. And we just want to do our work and be part of the fabric of the world we live in.
So I’m letting myself off the hook and reassuring myself that in all things I’m going through right now – I can rest in the knowledge that I’m doing the best I can (or that I did the best I could) and I’m going to keep working through it (Hi therapy!) but I’m also going to consciously move forward.
Do you need to tell yourself the same thing? That you made the best decision at the time or to let yourself off the hook? Let’s. I’ll go first.