I should mention how lucky I am to be married to Aaron. How loving and patient he’s been through all of this, and how supportive.

Last night – just as I’m falling asleep Aaron turns over and says “Jodi, I don’t want anything to happen to you when you’re having this baby. I mean, if you’re in pain or anything, I want you to be comfortable – and I don’t want to lose you.”

Like he’d been reading somewhere that women can die in childbirth or thinking of how painful it must be, he just had to wake me up and tell me how much I meant to him and that, above all, he wanted me safe and sound and in his arms when everything was over.

Thats right up there with your mom telling you everything’s going to be OK.

I love you, Aaron.

I think my day might have just gotten better.

Happy Anniversary

I’m struggling with whether or not I should post this. I don’t want my dad’s photo and entries to become archives just yet. But my marriage is still a living and breathing organism in this world, one in which I have to fan the flame …

One year ago today I said “I do” to the commitment of a lifetime in front of over 200 friends and family. I got married to the best thing that has happened to me in a long time, I married my best friend, confidant, personal comedian and the love of my life. I married Aaron Louis Schaap.


I can’t believe we made it. A whole year, through great times, through hard times, through tragedies and deaths, through births and reunions, and through the first trimester of our very own pregnancy. I love you so so much. You have been more than I could have dreamed of in supporting me through everything. You’ve been my cheerleader, my coach and my hero.

I cannot wait to meet our baby in January and I know I’ll fall in love with you all over again in the coming months and years as I watch you be a father, a daddy and a parent to our kid(s) – you’re going to be great.

I’m so happy to be with you and beside you and behind your every decision. I’m going to need you in this next year, dealing with my feelings, grief, loss, and motherhood and adjusting to the new rhythm of our lives.

Aaron Schaap, you are the sweet sweet autumn breeze I crave so much. You, my dear, are stuck with me 😉

All my love,
Jodi Michelle Schaap