risky business

A few days later and I just feel silly about this but that’s probably the whole point of saying something out loud that has bounced around your head for a while. Some times just getting it out of your head makes everything clearer.

Last year about this time I took the Mondo Beyondo course and although I have this life list the Mondo Beyondo course removed barriers and asked that we just write the impossible on paper. If I could remove every obstacle – what would I want to accomplish, try, taste, who would I meet, where would I live, what would I leave behind?

I’m glad I did it, I know a few more things about what really is important to me – like I have a desire to earn income. I would have never thought that it meant more than I wanted some free time or more spending money – and it is much more involved than that. I have a deep desire to stand on my own two feet and a vehicle for that is earning an income that would support my family.

It’s just nice to peel away layers. To be proactive in being the person I’m meant to be. Even if that is an ordinary mom in Michigan. I still want to fulfill my potential. I still want to take risks, too.

What if

Some time I play a game in my head that allows me to wonder what if …

What if I wrote something that became published? Either through self, printable publishing or by a publishing house. What if?

What if some day there were a red carpet event because of something I had done … what if?

It’s not that I think that highly of myself, but I get compared to people out there who have these things in their pipeline – not often, and it’s few and far between … but I can’t help but wonder … what if?

The fact that it hasn’t happened yet and doesn’t look like it’s in my 5 year or 10 year plan is because it’s not my time. Wether or not my time comes, has yet to be decided. But, what if?

I’ve been writing for years and I understand that (within reason, and not always) it is one thing that I am OK at. I’m also young and have all kinds of time to figure whatever this is out – but there is a purpose to all of this. And it’s growing.

I’ve also had a glorious glass of wine – my kids are away for the night and we have a pizza in the oven. My night is wide open and after looking blankly at each other for about half hour wondering what the heck to do with ourselves, we walked to town and enjoyed afternoon drinks. Like real people without a care in the world. And that kind of fanciness gets you thinkin …

What’s in your “What if” bucket? I really want to know.