***Update: Winners of the bouquets are Charity and Kris! Congrats ladies!! Look for an email from me soon.
There’s a Tornado Watch in Holland, Mi this morning. School’s are canceled … dishes are falling off my counter from the open window and I made a pot of coffee.
I’m a bit of a romantic (SOOO Surprising, I know) so this weather lends to some really nice fantasy living. Candle light, coffee or tea, jammies all day, movies and cartoons, watching the world around me argue over wind possession and I can sit and watch the show for free.
Better than theatre in my opinion.
This morning as I was getting ready I was having a self talk that revealed, once again, that I just need to take things one at a time. Days, decisions, meals, requests. I’m always so overwhelmed with peace when I give myself permission to think only an hour ahead of myself.
Right Now … this is important. I’ll worry about the rest later.
Which brings me to this: I really like you guys. I’ve done countless giveaways in the past – and even self sponsored quite a few about a year (or two?) ago around the Holidays. Here’s what I’ve decided: I love to give. But giveaways are so empty at the end – all the hype and comments and even conversation and then a random generator picks a number and it’s done.
I want to do more than that – I love to interact with you guys. It feels so empty to give away some one else’s product no matter how much I believe in it. I don’t feel like I’m making a lasting impact on you. Whether or not that matters to anyone, I just don’t know. But I spend enough time here, talking and writing and wanting to get to know you that when it comes to gifting you with something … I kind of want it to mean something … for me.
Driving around the other day (one of my happy places, alone in the car) I was praying and talking and generally just organizing my thoughts, waiting for clarity and accepting silence as an answer … I had this feeling that maybe my job is to stuff women with purpose, with love. To believe in them when no one else does so that some day they might look in the mirror and believe it too.
I want to be a small voice in a big sea that has the impact to single handedly over turn the affects of advertising and judgement on women’s lives. In our daughters lives. In my own mother’s life.
Tall order, no?
Friends, I want to love you with courage and passion and I want to express my deep gratitude for you in my life. As small as it may be. Just a click here, a glance there. You affect me on a daily basis.
So this week I’m going to be sending some of you flowers …
They won’t last forever of course, they aren’t a kitchen aid and you can’t make a stew with them … but hopefully they’ll be a bright spot in your day and week. A reminder that even the most anonymous voice can be heard. That you are worthy.
You so totally are.
***I’m sending these flowers to you because I care and because I can. I’ve saved up some money in order to be able to pay it forward to my website … to you guys, who make this possible for me every day, who make it worth it.
Comment here and tell me the last time you received flowers – what were they for?
Giveaway open to any one, any where. The Random Generator will assist me in choosing the lucky winners. Comments will close at 10pm on Thursday October 28, 2010.
This might change, but right now I plan to send 2 of you a bouquet. I’m not leading this one, friends. I’m being led. Can I just say that as freaking scary and out of control that it feels … that I also have never felt so secure either?
This weather, I tell ya … there’s just something to it.